There is a quiet strength that can be gained from starting over. It is not about what has been lost but how much can be given. It is so easy to get lost in “I” right now however it is not about me.
At first I feel anxiety in just saying that. If its not about me then why? Why did I spend years of my life building a life? Why do I hurt so bad as it all seems to be taken away? Why why why dammit!
Then a peace comes as I give in to the truth. I am such a small part of the bigger picture and while my feelings are important, others are involved. Other people, other feelings and other plans.
What I worked for so hard is still there. I see it in the work ethic of Trey. I see it in artistic vision of Kelsey. I see it in the compassion of Michelle.
Taking a different path many times take sacrifice and can be agonizing. There are days that I long to be able to return to the old route. Not possible though. That trail is gone. Praise God!
This new path is not better, however it is not worse either. The truth is; even though it’s not, and really it is not, about me, I am responsible for its success.
My faith, my attitude and my heart will be responsible for the legacy I leave my children as we go forward. I pray this new life has laughter, full bellies, warm hugs and quiet peace that only God can provide.
I am so blessed.